Not really.  I was a good little troll.  I just wanted to get your attention.  Although I did go out last night.  I’ve not gone out, well you know, in a year. It was weird.   I felt like everyone could see through me, and even when I was watching a cute little blonde chick top an enormous Hispanic guy, it just seemed so… trite. I’m too jaded and I don’t know how to stop.

I have zero interest in vanilla, but I’m not in the place for the vulnerability of scening.  Hell, I’m not even ready for rawness of subbing, in the pirvacy of my own bedroom (I still think “our bedroom”  🙁 ).  I guess I can go back to topping for a while and see if I meet anyone I feel I can trust enough for the rest to follow.  Topping is the invisible mask.